So it took this far to realize I need to make changes to my life. I’m already 41 (or is it 42?) and I have one or two more years until I turn old and wrinkley. lol.

Almost unforgivable. I should have made the pivot at 36 but I was a coward and inherently a paranoid. I am in Canada. A new life and a new beginning but I have been very slow to make changes. Woe is me. I’m so woe. Lol.